OR
Do you gamble? Take the road less chosen. The one which will take you through an exciting adventure. You may come out exhausted, but the adrenaline will drown out whatever the prior path would've given you.
But still...
You choose the conventional path. You chose the safety over the wild card.
And thought your reasons are valid; I still feel like it's not enough. Not enough to satisfy my curiosity to this anomaly.
Why do I miss everything about you? Your laugh, your smile, the contours of your hand, the way your nose wrinkles when you smile, the contours of your hand, the way you seek out for my hand when yours' is cold. Hell; I even love the way you look when you're annoyed.
Why do I feel like this? Something lower than trash and sludge. Even when it's not even me who is at fault? I can't get you out of my head. I close my eyes and I see your smile. I turn around and I see you at the corner of my eye. I turn up the volume of the radio and I laugh at how you sang to that song.
Screw this. I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get into a position where I can get hurt like this. And yet, I left myself vulnerable.
I broke my own goddamn heart.
So, screw this. Go live your life. As I will resume to live mine. Don't get me wrong; sure we can still be friends, etc, yadda yadda. But it doesn't mean I have to treat you as good as might treat a friend.
You have a long way to go.
